Well not so much a mile, more, well …you’ll see 🙂
It was Saturday, I had tried to run but really wasn’t in the right frame of mind… I was struggling to know what exercise to do…
It shouldn’t really be that hard but some days you just don’t have a decision making capability…
Anyway, I came up with an idea, it was part intrigue, and part laziness. Not physical laziness, but mental laziness. I was an idea that seemed like a good one when I had it…and I decided that if nothing else it would lead to a good blog post 🙂
The things I do for you guys!!
I decide to do one of the workouts I planned for my best client. I chose the most recent one from this Friday, I got my stuff and I set myself up in the kitchen. It had to be the kitchen because I needed a smooth floor…
First was tabata, I have random exercises on cards, I picked out 2 from the cardio labelled exercises and alternated them for 4 mins of 20 seconds work, 10 seconds rest. Then I did it again with another two randomly picked cards.
I did Med ball power knees because it seemed like a good fit, and look, voluntary fancy burpees!!
After this I did the resistance band section, these were the small resistance bands which I have previously talked about going round knees for such things as squats… These exercises are all a lot more difficult than they look… this is a thing I know about resistance bands. I even did the required 15 reps…15 reps is not my favourite amount of reps…but I did it because they were the rules…do the exercises as written…
Following this was the turn of the fluffy cloth workout… sounds nice and easy and happy doesn’t it… well really not so much…
there are commercially available workout thingies that take the form of sliders that you put your feet or hands on and move them about in different ways… they are expensive and can be simulated with a smooth floor and some microfibre cloths…
So that is what I did.
These exercises are excellent because you have to use your core and stabiliser muscles as well as the muscles being worked just to keep from over sliding and falling down…
Excellent and evil!!
My client actually banned me from ever bringing these back a while ago (yes she can do that) but relented last week and so I decided this workout that I also did… it was HARD!
Good hard but hard!!!
I can sort of see why she banned them to be honest but hey are so effective I think I will use them again!
The last thing I did was some core exercises using the little Pilates ball 🙂 I remember these being easier (not easy but easier) when I used to go to Pilates!!
What have I learned from this experience?
Well a couple of things actually…
- I am not an easy trainer
- My client is a lot fitter than she thinks she is (she made this look easier than I felt it was)
- If I want to get myself back to full fitness and drop some fat (which I do explain-y post to follow) I should write myself workouts and get my arse into gear and do them!!!
So that is what I am going to do… I am going to treat myself as I would my own client and make no more excuses!!
I did… I said never again.
I said I hated it and I wouldn’t ever do another one.
Well… I may have changed my mind.
Its ok…I can do that, I am allowed 🙂 I make my own rules you know 😛
In case you haven’t already guessed, I am talking about running. Specifically running races, and even more specifically running a half marathon.
Yes…that’s right, after several strong hints, you have guessed it! I have signed up to run another half marathon. Brighton half marathon on 25th Feb 2018 to be precise.
I suppose that I have a little bit of explaining to do…
I have been thinking about this for a while, I have actually been putting some serious thought into whether this is a good idea or whether I should just let the whole thing go. This is the first difference between this time and the last time. Last time it was a spur of the moment decision made after a little persuasion from my friend Rachel who wanted someone to run with her and convince her to train. Don’t get me wrong, I decided to do it of my own free will, but I didn’t have the idea for myself and I never really wanted to do it for the right reasons.
I didn’t do the last one because I wanted to run a half marathon, I did it to help out a friend. Which is all well and good, but it didn’t really set my head off in the right place. I was negative about the whole thing from the outset.
This time it is different. I have thought, a lot…and bored people talking at them about it. I have decided that I want to do another one.
Not “I feel I should”
Not “It would be a good thing to do for charity”
I want to run (or walk/run) a half marathon. I want to do it for the following reasons:
- I want to run a half marathon to prove to myself that I can.
I know this seems odd as I have already done one, but the experience of the last one was so bad that I have discounted it in my head)
- I want to see what I can do with the right training and the right food and basically the right versions of everything I got wrong in the last one.
- I want to do it to prove to myself I can stick at things and improve, to prove I am not a failure.
Yes…I do feel like one after the failed walk and the disastrous last half…I know I am not one in general, but sometimes we have to do things to banish the feeling.
- I want to run a half marathon for me.
So that is it, me running a half marathon because I want to… noone forcing me, noone pressuring me to do it, just me against myself.
I *could* just go out and train for a half marathon and run the distance with no race I suppose…but I want an official tick. I want a deadline and a designated place and time to do it. I like to have something tangible to train for.
Also I like shiny medals…
Not that you are really allowed to go around wearing your medals…not for more than one day any way…
I don’t see why not though…I might do this time…I fully intend to be proud of myself at the end and not just grumpy and broken!
In fact I am going to try not to be grumpy at all during this process…
Ok…no that is a complete lie..I will be grumpy sometimes but I am determined not to be sad and angry throughout the race!
I will, of course, keep you informed about how my training is going! The very first thing I need to do is figure out a training plan…and how to run… and how to eat while running and drink… ok…I’ll take those one at a time…
but for now…
Hello and welcome to day 2…
Have I told you about my not new any more new trainer Matt 2? Well I know I have as i just looked it up, but it was back in May last year (here…just in case you wondered) so I’ll let you off if you have forgotten. Well anyway, I had training this morning with Matt 2 (who will henceforth be know as Matt because that is his name). If you are a regular reader if these ramblings you will not be surprised by this, Tuesday has been my PT day for almost as long as I have been writing this!
So this morning I turned up at the gym bright and early (only minutes late) ready and raring to go…
well…ready and resigned to the fact that I was there and someone had planned me a work out so I had better do it… but that’s ok…I was there at least 😀
Todays session started well, after the warm up we headed down to the lifting racks…
Even more yeay we were doing deadlifts (and by we were I mean I was). Deadlifts are my favourite thing (well one of them…) woohoo 5 x 5 deadlifts at 70kg 😀 fun times!! It turns out this was just to lull me into a false sense of security…or as I think it was put, get me back into it gently after my week away from the gym climbing mountains…
This deadlift fun was followed by cardio/kettlebell/trx circuitry!! Which is aeswom because well…kettlebells but also because I asked to incorporate more cardio into my workouts despite hating it… but also awful because rowing sprints…250m rowing sprints…bleuch! Good for me, I know but bleuch because they are hard work!!
The other things were single sided 10 reps per side…which is 20 reps really…which gets Matt a look because everyone knows Sams don’t like high reps… I don’t think he cares though and I do them anyway because I know they are sometimes beneficial!
And that was day 2…well the before work morning part of day 2 anyway…
yes…that does mean there is more!
I am holding tight to my current wave of motivated enthusiasm and attempting to make some things a habit…
Things like running at lunchtime 🙂
It was raining, and thundering, and I had worked out once already so I didn’t technically *have* to go, but I went anyway.
I got changed and ventured out into the rainy but still warm and annoyingly humid outside world and ran around again!
I am doing the 10k trainer programme app thingy that I have used before and starting at the very beginning due to my year long hiatus from running and I am up to week 3 today was week 3 day 1 and involved some 1.5min run intervals and some 3 min run intervals.
Strangely, despite the rain and the fact that I was running, I actually had fun…
Just maybe I don’t hate running any more!
And that is day 2 done 😀
You know…the thing where I had to walk, in a bra, overnight…
OK…I sort of did the thing…
I am really annoyed and angry to tell you that I failed to finish the thing due to my stupid foot playing up and making it impossible to walk…
The foot that got plantar fasciitis…(I told you about it here) that put me on crutches last year…
Well guess what, it decided that this walk was a good time to return! I managed 13 miles, even though it started hurting in mile 2, I didn’t want to stop but I could hardly put it down 😦 I had a horrible feeling that if I carried on I would end up on crutches again. So I went to see some medics, who agreed with me…
I did wear a wonder woman bra in public, with a cape attached though, so that is a plus…and a huge step forward as I am definitely not in the “shape” I would have once said I needed to be in to wear a wonder woman bra in public!
Things I have learned from this experience:
- I have no idea what size bra I wear!
- I have finally learned to listen to my body…I am not injured but I would have been if I had carried on!
- Capes really do get in the way!
- Things wouldn’t be challenges if they were easy!
I am not putting up that picture to show off… This is not a look at my weight loss etc post or picture…although to be completely honest it is good to remind myself how far I have come once in a while…
The whole point of this picture is it represents a fundamental change in my attitude!
When the first picture was taken I hated pictures, I wouldn’t look at the camera and I could barely look at the resulting pictures without being miserable for ages.
Now, believe it or not, I am willing to pose for photos, I mostly don’t hate them and I even have more selfies than is sensible on my phone! But this is about more than photos. It is about confidence and attitude. It is about finding the courage to stand up to the judgmental attitudes of today’s society. To stand up to the attitudes that say you have to be a certain size or shape to dress a certain way.
Even at the end of my first 365 I wouldn’t have dreamed of wearing the muscle shirt in the top picture without a second top under it. I still qualified every achievement with disclaimers about needing to lose more weight, or still having lots of things I needed to change. It was almost as if I was not allowing myself to be proud of myself , I couldn’t let anyone thing I was pleased with me the way I was. After all what would happen if they thought I was still fat…I felt I had to acknowledge it before they said something!
Just in case you are new or have forgotten this was the end of my 365 project…
This was me, I was happy because dancing, I was happy because 365 days of exercise is quite a big achievement, I was happy with my progress.
The one thing I couldn’t say I was happy with was my body.
Now the end of 365 me was a differently shaped me to the now me. Partly because I have been a little less dedicated to my eating, and quite a lot because I have been doing a lot of heavy lifting… but this isn’t the point, the point is…
We are allowed to be proud of ourselves. We are allowed to like our bodies and appreciate them for what they can do!
I know what you are thinking…what changed? and when are you going to get to the point and tell me what body positivity is?
Well first things first…what changed?
Well…obviously I did…but what made me change?
The first thing was this person…
This is Whitney Way Thore, star of a show called Whitney Fat Girl Dancing, and a dancer who works to encourage people to accept their body and not body shame others. I don’t watch her show often, but I happened to catch an interview with her and of course she was being quizzed for promoting obesity and such like. and she explained she has PCOS which made her gain weight and that she was aware that it could be unhealthy to be overweight but then she said “Appreciate your body for what it can do.” and that if it is stopping you doing things you want to it is time for a change. That one line started to change my outlook.
Then I found Grrrl Clothing, an amazing company run by Kortney Olson I have told you about them before here they are all about body positivity and fitness at all sizes…which quite honestly is rare in a fitness clothing company! The breakthrough really came when I found their FB group Grrrls. This group is full of amazing women who all support each other and all subscribe to the Grrrl philosophy which comes handily written on the clothing tag.
This is important. No negativity about yourself or others. As soon as you start to do this your outlook starts to change.
How often do you look in a mirror and criticise yourself, or tell yourself that you are stupid, or tell other people that you need to lose weight or are so fat or whatever. As soon as you stop this and start to look for positives, everything changes. Not instantly…it is not magic… you can’t wipe out years/decades of social conditioning in one hit but it starts to happen. You start to appreciate what your body can do whether it is lift heavy things, run a long way, make children (I have heard this can be a good thing but I remain unconvinced :-p), or just move you around through your busy day to day lives. You start to realise that you can be and do anything you want to do at any size and that the dictates of society are quite frankly rubbish…
Society says you have to be skinny to be attractive…well no actually the thing that makes a person most attractive is confidence. Society says women shouldn’t lift weights because they might get all bulky…well, bulky is unlikely in women and anyway…why shouldn’t women be bulky if they want…
Society says working out is for weight loss and for looks…well no, working out is for health and for whatever your own personal goal is!!
Before I go on any more I am going to show you some of the awesome women in the group who have inspired me to walk around with scary bright leggings on and muscle shirts with no vest tops under them…to walk around with confidence!
These are not the only inspirational women in the group by a long way but it just shows, no matter what size, what shape, what background we come from, there is no judgement! 😀
So here’s what body positivity means to me:
Body positivity is about believing in your own self worth, about believing that I am strong and capable and worthy of confidence as I am right now! It is ok to want to work on self improvement, it is ok to still want to lose weight but the difference is I am doing it for me and for health and to be an even better me rather than as a punishment for being a bad me!
I work out because I like it.
I wouldn’t mind losing some more fat, but I am proud of myself for who I am at the moment!
I can spend three days in a row dancing and walking miles and still walk the next day! I can lift 100kg (almost…) I can ride my bike for mile and miles I can swing a kettlebell about like nobody’s business and I can do all of these things right now.
I am fit and I am healthy and I still have chocolate sometimes and that is ok!
I am still mildly terrified of posting this without the caveats I mentioned at the start. I still have the fear of people judging me for being too fat or too weak or, now after writing this, too show-y off-y…
but you know what I am posting it anyway along with these pictures of the me that I am proud of right now!
So be who you want to be, be who you are and don’t be ashamed of it! Don’t let “society” dictate whether you wear leggings or shorts or vest tops or giant hats covered in peacock feathers or what ever you like because at the end of the day it is not their business…it is yours 😀
This weekend started so well!!
It was Rochester sweeps festival which involves.. well… Dancing and more dancing and some waking about… all with fantastic people! So that was pretty damn awesome and is exactly what this whole fit enough to dance in a mask project was all about!!
First the path was closed then the detour (as with all good detours) left me in the middle of nowhere then a dog attacked some sheep (not my dog…I don’t have one) then it rained for the next 5 hours!
So miserable was it that I stopped after 14miles… still in the plus side I did 14 miles 🙂
Monday involved more dancing…well a long procession and then a little bit of dancing at Hastings Jack in the Green festival… it would have been fun… but there was so much rain!! Still there was dancing and that is always good!!
Despite the weekends wet drawbacks, it has reminded me of something…I am a damn sight fitter than I used to be…I have turned into a person who can sandwich a 14 mile walk in between two days of dance without crippling myself!! this, my friends is progress!! 😀
Or an awesome walk in Northern Scotland…
We are currently mis grand ad-van-ture, and a couple of days ago we went in a walk…over some hills in between mountains to a beach which was inaccessible any other way (apart from the really wet way).
The beach was Sandwood Bay and if you are ever in the area you should go on an expedition!
It was a windy cold not quite raining day in Scotland and it was totally worth it!!! The place was amazing!!
And not only that it counted as 14km of walking training up and down some hills 😁
More grand ad-van-ture news to follow 😁
Yes…another thing…this time it is a marathon length thing O_O
But… it is a WALKING marathon not a running one…
This is very important!!
I am not running a marathon!
Nope…not now, not ever.
However…I am walkign one and it is overnight and I have to do it wearing a bra.
yes…ok…to be honest I normally walk places wearing a bra…but the point is I have to wear only a bra.
on top…I mean only a bra on top…I get to wear trousers and shoes and stuff…
I feel I could be explaining this better…
There is an event called the Moonwalk which some of you may have heard of. It is an overnight walk around london (or the one I am doing is in London, I belive others are available) in aid of Walk the Walk who work with breast cancer charities to help people with breast cancer! Go and read all about it here: http://walkthewalk.org/challenges/the-moonwalk-london-2017/
So this is my crazy challenge for 2017 which I will undoubtedly tell you more about…
I have done some training already (not enough…i am following my usual pattern of procrastination and last minute panic) here are some pictures of it…
If you are feelign particularly generous… I have a sponsor page and I would be super grateful for any help!!